Grades and Expectations

When I saw my results for last semester, a particular grade stood out like a sore thumb.

B-

But it was also my happiest.

It’s good to have expectations in life. But for some of the lesser things, such as in grades, knowing when to lower our expectations creates a shortcut to happiness. 

For such a simple formula to life’s pleasure, I am only gradually learning.

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Reading too much into things

A job offer from P made me realised that I may have read too much into things that simply did not exist. Of course, it could be a case of them choosing the least (me) of the worst, but that in itself is a self-righteous interpretation. As much as I hate to believe, life could in fact be simple.

While coming up with a million interpretations/explanations on things is how I roll, I ought to accept that some times it could just be a simple matter of ‘Yes’ and ‘No’.

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Self-destruct

I may have spoken too much during my interviews.

Yesterday’s interview was rather informal, the senior manager who interviewed me made sure I believed that. He stirred talks about how audit is a stepping stone to many graduates, and how he’s one of those who’s still ’stucked’ in this quagmire.

I laughed. I dropped my guard. And I released that inconvenient truth about how it would pretty much apply to me as well. I let loose of my aspiration of eventually working in a gaming company, and would like to be part of the audit team in the Consumer’s Market because of this reason. The litmus test came. He asked me if Nintendo is to hire me, what would I do. I told him I’ll grab it. He dug a hole and I jumped right in.

He was a fox wearing an earnest-looking glasses and I let him into my home. I can’t save myself from further damage as I had realised this fatal mistake only after my second interview. My interviewer today, a partner, had a more formalised interview but I failed to notice it. When she mentioned that employees who can reach managerial levels are most able to value-add the organisation, I knew it was a tactful way of saying “Sorry, you blew”. 

I simply gave them reasons not to hire me!

GAAAAAAAH!!!! Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! I am actually extremely interested in working in these firms. And I thought I had conducted myself pretty well throughout the interviews. I had 3 lives, but 2 of them are arguably down. I wish to think that my mind is playing tricks with me and I am simply reading too much into things, but when I fail to receive a single phone call a week from now, I would have no one to blame but myself.

Friday is my final life line. I need to make sure my mouth knows when to shut. I cannot afford to blow myself up again.

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The time leading

To registering subjects always brings about a mix of apprehension and excitement. I can’t quite explain the excitement part, but apprehension comes largely from a certain fear, a fear of not getting the damn subjects registered. The concern about not getting into the same class as my friends is never a concern of mine. It sounds pretty anti-social, but I guess I have gotten too used to this kind of life. Looking back at my university life, I haven’t really acquainted a close group of friends that I can just ring for a cup of coffee. It is most regretful, but what I lacked here I have gained in many other aspects.

It isn’t the prettiest of time tables but at least I have my favourite 10.30-12.30 time slots. To know that this is the last time I will be fetting over such issues is just incredible. 3 years sounded long, but it sure has come knocking on the door.  

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